Off Topic Friday!

I thought it'd be nice once a week to just set aside all the strenuous focus on what God is or isn't doing in my life right now and just enjoy the day for what it is. Sometimes, I can get so caught up in what painful experiences I've been through, going through or waiting on Gods many promises. 

So, today Im just going to rant on about the small things in life. I woke up this morning and it was pouring with rain. I figured it'd stop soon enough but it's one of those days where it just won't seem to give up. It's days like today that I'm so glad that I'm a stay at home wife where I can stay curled up in bed, under my blankets and stare out the window watching the rain fall, seeing the grass getting greener before my very own eyes, leaves falling, branches swaying in the wind, the sky is so dark and gloomy and not a person insight. I can hear the sound of the rain on the roof. It's very therapeutic! Now all I need is an espresso coffee in hand along with a good book (dreaming much) and this would make for a wonderful day. So winter is here and I was thinking, what things do you like to do in winter? Me personally, I'm not a fan of winter and its cold ways but I try to do my best to be content during these months. Besides watching movies or going to the movies, reading, staying in, eating warms foods at home or at a restaurant, dressing in numerous layers, sitting by the fire, drinking warm tea/coffee/cacao and catching up with friends/family what else is there? I don't know but either way those things sound pretty darn good to me!

It's truly amazing that God is present in all seasons of our lives. The fact that we can find peace even in the midst of a storm or joy in the midst of turmoil. God is always present, just as he is for me today as I enjoy the shelter and warmth he provided me with whilst being in oar of his many creations.

Hope you are all staying safe and warm today! 

God Bless!

Stopping to see the beauty.

God's Promises

Today I've decided to write down all God's promises that he has given me over the past 8 months so that you can see them come to light as well as time goes by. This way you will get a genuine view of how amazing our God is. I hadn't previously thought of doing this because I was dealing with other life struggles but it just hit me that this will be my way of sowing the good seed into your lives so that you don't have to just trust me but you can believe in God's amazing visions. So far these are the promises he's given me. See below:

• The conception of our twin baby boys. Still waiting on this one but holding onto faith that it's close now. Believe it will happen this June/July 2015
• My husband and I providing marriage counselling to those going through devastations. (This vision along with our babies was given to me back in September 2012). 
• Along with the marriage counselling vision, I asked Holy Spirit if we would need to study and he said: "Haven't you already been counselling couples. Trust in God, you will not need to study". - This vision is already come to light a lot in Wadeye but mainly as a female to female situation. I believe this one will develop more as time goes on.
• My husband and I working together in a career God desires for us. - We are working as houseparents in remote Australia working together for a Christian school. - August 2014
• World Vision - I came to realise this wasnt a vision for employment however, a vision in regards to our child sponsorship. Aug 2013
• Financial Freedom - I gained employment today that provides a substantial amount of money. (26th August 2013)
• By the end of May, beginning of June 2013 healing will come to light. - On June 17th God gave me the most amazing revelation EVER! I have reached a new level of healing. I think I will blog on this specific revelation because I believe many others could benefit from it. It is related to my marriage and God has given me a new perspective in regards to how I see my sufferings. AMAZING!
• ****** There has been many levels to this healing journey and it's now December 2014 and I've come to another higher level of healing where I have reached out my hand to those who have hurt me and asked to be friends and love them like Christ loves us and calls us to love others...
• A year from now, May 2014 I won't even recognise myself and the struggles in our marriage will seem so insignificant. - there has been a huge shift in my marriage and within myself. It's fantastic. *** As listed above their were still some stumbles along the way even after May 2014 but growth is growth and I've reached a new level of healing and a new understanding to my journey.
• (Jesus put it on my heart that in June/July of a year unknown that we will be blessed with our babies. - June/July 2015 we are going back to our hometown and facing where our issues unfolded. We believe this is a required step in facing the past once and for all and I sense that I will be pregnant with our twins during this visit or shortly after.  
• I was given a bible verse by The Holy Spirit: Revelations 2:26: "To the one who is victorious and does my will to the end, I will give authority over the nations".
• My husband is free from the bondages that had him captive and never again will we have to walk down this painful path again. YIPPEE still holds true to today!
• Becoming missionaries - We have been missionaries in remote NT working with indigenous people for over a year now - Dec 2014.

• I keep sensing that we will  be blessed with our twin baby boys biologically but both my husband and I feel this sense that we will also adopt children from all around the world. Tanzania, Mozambique, Ethiopia, Jamaica, America and Indigenous Australians. 

• My husband and I sense that we will visit Pemba Island one day. We first thought it was just a holiday but it seems there maybe more to it?? Will let you know when we know. 

I will continue to add to this list if I receive anymore promises but as you can see I've been promised a lot. My husband and I hold these things dearly to our hearts and they are the things that get us through the rough times along with Gods amazing grace. 

God Bless,

All shall be brought to light!

Turning The Tables

The past few days had been extremely rough. Just a week ago I was feeling the sense of being healed and that God had truly turned this thing around. I can tell you that restoration and healing is still in Gods plan but I was caught up in a spiritual battle but at the time I was unaware of it. My husband and I were fighting and things weren't looking good. The "D" word was being thrown around and I believed it was over for us. For two days we weren't talking besides the little amounts we had too. In a very short space of time I had this sense that Holy Spirit was saying to me "Go and reconnect with your husband". I was yelling out, "No, I can't go through this pain anymore. Unless you take away my memory, I'm not doing it. I've been doing it long enough". As you can imagine, God had his own plans and I fought him every step of the way. The struggles my husband and I are going through are like a tsunami and satan doesn't want God to have the victory because the previous 2.5 weeks were absolutely amazing. A true vision of healing. Anyway, it didn't take me long to figure out I was caught up in a spiritual battle that is beyond me. I could hear the words ringing in my ear "Be Still". Satan had tried and somewhat succeeded with filling my head with things like "You deserve a better life than this one. You can have a husband that won't hurt you". (These were all lies from satan. I do deserve to be happy but not separated from my amazing, faithful husband). For those who know me, I'm a fighter and I generally don't allow satan's words to resonate within me but this was like a bomb had exploded and I didn't know which way was up. 

Anyway, I seeked help through friends that were amazing in prayer. Their words that just seemed to be downloaded straight from God himself truly helped settle my soul. I seeked Biblical counsel from a wise woman whose words just seemed to fill me up. After seeing her, I came home and my inner being was seeking out my husband. I could tell that there was no running from this one. He and I are meant to be together and God has his hand over us. Even if I tried to run, I would always end up back in the arms of my beloved. When God has a plan for your life, you can try to fight it but like myself, he will drag you back to his path kicking and screaming if necessary. I can say that today, my husband and I are back in each others arms and ready to continue to rely on God for his healing within our lives. He has a plan for our marriage and our lives, there's no escaping it. 

During this time of struggle, God met one of the many visions he provided me with. For the past 4 months, God had "World Vision" (Yes, the company) ringing in my ears and deep on my heart. Previously, World Vision put out 3 jobs some months back and I applied for them, staying faithful to God's visions and I was denied every step of the way. I was confused but I chose to stay faithful to his promises and not let the rejection get me down too much. Anyway, 2 weeks ago another casual position came up through World Vision, so I stepped out again in faith and applied. In the midst of this recent crisis, I received an email from World Vision whom have invited me for an interview June 4th. Can you believe it!?! God is so faithful to his promises!! He just knew that the timing was absolutely necessary. Thank You Jesus for loving me and my husband so very much and always coming through. I cannot believe how many promises that have come to light and yet my faith still waivers at times of spiritual attack. Forgive me father, I really am like a young child needing your guidance and direction every step of the way. I'm so thankful that you never give up on us. I love you so much!

Today is another day and I'm ready for the battles ahead. I'm still struggling and God knows what it is I need so I will wait as patiently as I can and watch him move mountains for me. 

God Bless You All!

All in God's timing.

When God Comes Through

Hi Fam! Sorry it's been a few days since I've written a blog but I must tell you, I truly wait for God to implant something on my heart before I just start typing away. I allow the Holy Spirit to direct my blogs so when I'm a little on the quiet side, this is why. 

"After a storm comes a rainbow"

Going back almost 8 months ago I was given a few visions that were just amazing, especially considering the timing. If you go back and read "Double the Trouble and Double the Fun" you will see that I talked on visions that were provided to me during a very rough time in my marriage and one of those was the conception of our twin baby boys. The other which I'm going to spend a little bit of time talking about today is the vision of my husband and I providing "Christian marriage counselling" for those whom God sends our way. In regards to the "twin babies" vision, this one we are still waiting on patiently and staying faithful for. 

Anyway, I truly need to explain the depth of this Christian marriage counselling vision for you to grasp just how amazing our God is. So, 8 months ago my marriage was hit with one of the biggest storms I've ever been through to the point where I thought my marriage was going to end. I couldn't see a way that all things were going to workout for the greater good. One lonely night after the storm had hit, I couldn't sleep, my head was flooded with pesky images, thoughts and emotions. I was exhausted. I was broken and my world had been torn apart but in the midst of this emotional crisis, I began to see the first image as if I was watching a movie and it was the vision of our twin boys at the park with my husband. The next vision was of my husband and I providing Christian marriage counselling to other couples. The vision showed my husband and I sitting in our lounge room and across from us was another husband and wife scenario with the woman crying and the man trying to comfort her. All I could think was, "why am I seeing this?" "What is the purpose of this?" "This marriage is doomed, so why now God?" "Why are you showing me the children I will never have?" "Why am I seeing a vision of my husband and I counselling others?" These visions rushed through my head over and over again. Needless to say, I didn't get much sleep that night, nor the following weeks to come. 

As time went by I wrestled with God, trying to understand why he would allow the devastations that happened to hit our marriage. I continuously spoke out to him saying things like "God, if you loved me then why would you allow this to happen?" "God, I don't want to be a marriage counsellor because that means I'm going to be reminded ALL the time of the past failures in my marriage." "Why do I have to do this?" The "why" questions flooded my mind for months and months on end. A part of me felt as if God had failed me as my father. It was truly a painful and ugly place to be in. Anyway, what I can tell you now, 8 months later is that God is sooo AMAZING! Not only is he healing my marriage and he's restored my husband and I back to our original image and value through the cross and the sacrifice of Jesus Christ but he's showing me, guiding me and teaching me how to accept my new found destiny. 

Over the last month, my husband and I have had a few couples reaching out to us, asking for Godly advice. Do you see the vision God planted on my heart 8 whole months ago is coming to life!! I'm not saying that we are qualified in an educated sense in this area however, we have walked through the valley of the shadow of death and we are out the other side but only through Christ who has given us strength. It's absolutely amazing. It's truly mind blowing. God truly sticks to his word. He is so faithful. 

I spoke on asking the Holy Spirit into your life during my "Tormented by the Past: 3rd and Final" blog and how I had the most beautiful and amazing revelation of God through the Holy Spirit. During my conversations with the Holy Spirit I asked him whether my husband and I should start studying "Christian Counselling" since this is the direction God wants us in. I explained my hesitation and that I don't get the sense that God wants me to because I have been wrestling with the idea of studying for sometime now. The Holy Spirit, giggled and said: "Renee, haven't you already been counselling others? If God wanted you to study you would have already been there. God can make ALL things come together for his eternal plan. Rely on him. Trust him and he will see to it that this all comes to light." Amazing right!?! Well, what can I say, it's begun! 

I can tell you, it hasn't been smooth sailing in the sense that there is still a part of me that "wishes" that this wasn't a part of my life because reliving past hurts can be so painful and frustrating. I know that one day I'm going to wake up and the past hurts are no longer going to have that nasty sting attached to them and that is the day I'm truly looking forward to. However, I also feel so privileged that God believes in my husband and I with these amazing peoples lives and helping them through their struggles. I find myself thinking, if only there were more people on the positive side of the spectrum coming to us so that we could do more on the preventative measure than the crisis mode stuff but I guess we all have a season or two of crisis mode. 

My point is that as long as we are truly relying on God he will come through for us. It may not look like how we want it to, it may not be in the time frame we desire but it will happen. If God has given you a word or a vision hold on tight to those things and NEVER let them go because God will provide for you as he is for me. Just keep your eyes set on God. Show him your dedication and do the things you can whilst waiting for him to come through with his promises. NEVER GIVE UP!

God Bless,

Storm Fighter!

Tormented By The Past - 3rd and Final

Hi brothers and sisters, if you haven't read "Part 1" and "Part 2" please do so, so that you can keep up to date with God's amazing healing abilities. May God bless you all!

As you may have noticed I've written that this blog on the series "Tormented By the Past" is going to be my last on this topic. There has been a huge transition from where I was to where I am now. As I'm writing you, I'm trying to think what things truly helped with my letting go of past hurts and disappointments and I know this is going to sound a bit cliche but truly it was God's amazing blessings partnered with determination. 

Honestly, when you are so broken that the only thing that is going to get you out of a really bad situation is relying on our Heavenly Father, he truly steps in and does the rest for you. When I truly opened my heart and gave him the key, he was able to step in and work his miracles. There has been a complete shift in my way of thinking from feeling like a victim to knowing that I'm a survivor. One of the biggest pieces of advice I could give you is to focus less on your problems at hand and seek out God in everything you do. What I mean by that is, when we spend so much time focusing on our problems we allow them to become a much bigger problem. You are breathing life into the ugly and that is exactly what satan wants us to do. When you redirect your focus on God you are strengthening that relationship which decreases the strength of your current situation. 

Philippians 4:8:"Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things."

This was not an easy journey for my husband and I but I have learnt so much from our season of suffering in the valley. I'm not saying that bad days won't come from now on because that would be a lie but I know with all of my heart and soul we are on the other side of this thing. I know who I am and that my identity is in Christ and never again will anyone steal that from me. 

What I can say is that through our trials, especially the extremely severe broken foundational trials is that unless you go through it, you will never understand just how painful it truly is. Also, when you've been through such devastation you will be amazed at the true connection you have with your Heavenly Father, Jesus and the Holy Spirit. Before this season of suffering, I had never really experienced Gods "REAL" love. I was working to please him which is truly a waste of time because we cannot make him love us anymore or any less than he already does. I had never really experienced that deep connection with the Holy Spirit until now. I can honestly hear his pure and soft voice that dwells within me. He's such an amazing counsellor and I expect that over time that voice will be heard more frequent and a lot more clearer. 

As I was spending time in prayer a few days ago I invited the Holy Spirit into my conversation and I couldn't believe what I was hearing!! At first I was sceptical but he truly expressed things that no one else knew, he quoted biblical verses that not even I had read before and he even explained the importance of testing the spirits. It was so fascinating. He explained things in our healing journey, he gave clear instructions and told me when this season was going to come to an end. The fact is that, the Holy Spirit who dwells in you is real. He wants a relationship with you. He wants to speak to you on behalf of God. He is so loving and so trustworthy. For some people, experiencing the true depth of the Holy Spirit seems so distant and impossible but I'm here to tell you that he is real and he is just waiting for you to seek him out. It may not happen straight away but stay persistent. Faith will always be the driving force. When you have an abundance of faith in Christ, Jesus you will be amazed at the miracles you start to see big and small. 

All though I have been through many trials in my life already, I realise that God has had a plan and purpose for all of our shortcomings all along. He truly is turning it all around for our good. I still have some smaller hurdles to overcome but all things through Christ are possible. The fear that was driving me beforehand is no longer a strong presence in my life. I no longer feel like the woman trapped in a bubble or in fear of running into people to the same degree I was before. I have a sense of purpose and direction and I've become a woman after God's own heart. May God bless you all and do the same for you. Life is one big journey that God takes us on, removing the fruitless things in our lives and replacing them with blessings. Sometimes, in fact most of the time that isn't a painless process but stay focused because there is a purpose for your suffering.

God loves you!

Tormented No Longer!

Tormented By The Past - Part 2

Hi brothers and sisters, if you haven't read "Part 1" please do so, so that you can keep up to date with God's amazing healing abilities. May God bless you all!

Today I'm going to continue on with "Tormented By The Past - Part 2". What can I say? God can work so quickly when he knows you need his help. When you are putting all your focus on God he can truly provide you with peace and strength to get you through your troubles. The last few days I was truly reaching my breaking point. I couldn't stop the tears from pouring down my face, I felt tormented, beaten, bruised and forgotten but through all of that I was still able to cry out to God. The one thing I've realised is that no matter what I go through in life, no matter how much someone has hurt me, they cannot take away my ability to talk to my Lord and Saviour. Nothing can ever come between this relationship I share with him. 

Another thing I've realised is that it may seem like I/we are powerless BUT through the blood of Jesus Christ we have authority over this world through him. So what does that mean? Well it means that only we can allow fear into our lives. We have a choice to deny it room in our lives or we can fall victim to it and allow it to take up room it doesn't deserve. Satan will try to remind you of past failures and sufferings but it is up to us to declare VICTORY over those things in the name of Jesus. Now, I'm not saying this is easy. Believe me, I struggle with this all the time but the one thing  that you and I need to remember is that Satan is in for an eternal life in hell and he is miserable about it. He's just trying to make you miserable and ruin your relationship with G0d. The sooner you realise this, the sooner satan has less power over you. At times, I felt powerless because I allowed him to make me feel that way. I didn't feel like I had a choice but in reality we all have a choice as to how we let things define us. Stand firm and remember that God goes into battle for us, we just have to continue to stand firm and praise our Heavenly Father. Expect healings, expect restoration and start talking life into your situation instead of death.

You can say something like: "I am healed through the blood of Jesus Christ. I have nothing to fear because I am wonderfully and beautifully made. I am a child of God and no weapon formed against me shall prosper. My marriage has been completely restored to that of it's original design and we have a new covenant in Jesus name, AMEN!" 

Then I remind myself of all God's promises for my life such as, our twin baby boys. These types of things are worth holding on to. God truly loves us, all of us and if we keep our focus on him nothing shall ever truly harm us. 

Proverbs 29:25 The fear of man brings a snare: but whoever puts his trust in the LORD shall be safe.

I recently found out something absolutely mind blowing that has truly resonated with me. Did you know that it is truly important that we praise God even through our trials and tribulations? Before we even begin to request something from him we should be thanking him and praising him for what he has done and what he is going to do. In a sense this is where we breathe life into our situation by thanking Jesus for our victory over the "current" situation. Sing, shout and dance in praise for our Heavenly Father and you will start to see huge differences in your life. It may not happen how or when you want it to but it will happen. God has a plan for our lives and he has a plan for us to prosper, you just have to keep the faith and hold on tight. We know that this season will end and that it can't last forever so don't let the enemy steal your joy. 


God is LOVE!







Fighting the battle to win!

Tormented By The Past - Part 1

Today has been a day of true soul searching. Honestly, it has been one of those extremely emotional, raw days where nothing seemed to go right. I realised after spending time in prayer with God that I haven't truly let go of past hurts and as a Christian we are called to let go of them because they have all been dealt with on the cross. Our past sins have been forgiven if we've asked for forgiveness. Those who have hurt us and we've said we've forgiven no longer owe us anything and their sins have been forgiven but what happens when you want to forgive them, you've followed through with verbally expressing that continuously but yet you are still being tormented by those deep wounds... Where do you turn to and seek refuge? Well, Jesus of course!

Matthew 11:28-29: "Come to me all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." 

I've been dealing with past images flashing through my mind as if they were on a spinning wheel going round and round again. I jump straight in and rebuke them and yell out "I give no consent in the name of Jesus" but yet there they still are. As I began to cry out to my Heavenly Daddy asking him why I couldn't move on and what is the purpose of me still being reminded of the evil, hurtful things that I've had to deal with, it was as if a very quiet voice began to talk to me. Yes, it was the Holy Spirit. He softly told me that I'm holding on to the past and until I learn to let go and truly trust God I will not have the peace and joy I desire for my life. Freedom from always looking over my shoulder in fear, free from being worried about bumping into certain people who I feel threatened by. Right now, I'm missing out on having that pure joy for the future. I'm stuck looking backwards while the world keeps on turning and everyone else is still moving forward. Yet, here I am, in darkness by myself but I'm truly never by myself because Jesus is always with me. 

So what now? How does one let go?

Logically, I understand that I have to hand all of the past hurts over to Jesus and lay them at the foot of the cross but yet it's as if they have a retractable cord attached to them. I've tried everything from visualising that I'm cutting the cord between myself and those images, I've visited the places which hold me tormented, I've tried renewing my mind daily, I've been taking communion on the regular, I've even gone as far as writing down names, places etc and then burning them but yet they are still there hurting me daily. I've forgiven those who have hurt me, I've forgiven myself and I had to repent and ask for forgiveness from God because at one point through this healing journey I was playing the blame game on him as well. 

Currently, I feel like I'm the woman in the bubble, trapped inside my own mind and my own house. I go out and instantly I'm flooded with hurtful memories of landmarks etc and that constant fear of running into people and like I said before I focus on taking thoughts captive but still no success. I think I understand that I'm so wrapped in past hurts because it truly ruined my "fairytale" image of life. I no longer can live in the land of the innocent because I know how harsh the world we live in is but I want more than anything else to go back to that reality and that my friends, is what's holding me back. 

How does one let go of their ideal picture of how things are suppose to go in life? 

There are certain things we can all quite easily get over and those "things" are different for each of us and yet, there are those other "things" that seem to ruin our lives instead. The things I'm dealing with my friends, are the things that I would never wish upon another. I have prayed that God never lets another person go through what I'm currently going through but we do live in a fallen world and more people will go through these injustices. 

Life's trials are just that, they are trials and tests of faith and when those tests come along we can seriously assume they are going to be on specific things that God is aware that are our weaknesses. Now, I'm not saying that God makes these bad things happen to us. No! God is a great God. However, the enemy knows our weaknesses and he's been using the same old system of trickery for many many years now. Well, he found my weakness and I fell straight in a pit. A pit of wallowing in self doubt and self pity. It's truly an ugly place to be in. 

Honestly, today I don't have the answer to letting go of the past. This is a process for me. In a previous blog entitled "Health and Wellbeing" I discuss stress relieving techniques however, they are only short term helpers. Then I've also mentioned "Taking Communion" and this one is truly a HUGE help so I'm going to continue with this one because it's also the importance of acknowledging Jesus. 

Anyway, as for things to help move on from the past, I can only suggest things I'm trying to do and I'm not over the past as yet but once I am I will let you know what works for me in more detail. Please see below: 

1. Praying, praying and more praying. 
2. Seek out forgiveness no matter how painful it is.
3. Remind yourself you are a Child of God and live from it.
4. Take communion
5. Focus on the things you have to be thankful for each day.
6. Take every thought captive. (This one I struggle with). 
7. Remind yourself that you've already been through the worst of it and that you survived. Now it's just healing emotionally and spiritually. 
8. If you're like me and places are haunting you because of past memories, go back there, go through the emotions, cry and scream out if need be. Take back those places in the name of Jesus through the authority given to you and rebuke all demonic spirits from those places. (It truly does weaken the enemies hold on these places). 
9. Remember to have fun.
10. Exercise 
11. When thoughts evade your mind, visualise Jesus on the cross and remember that it's all been dealt with.
12. When your mind is being tormented stand up firmly and stomp your feet reminding yourself of the present day and that you have already walked through the past.
13. Pamper yourself
14. Sing and dance
15. Write names and places on a piece of paper, say a little something like "all though you hurt me and you may of had a piece of my past, you will not have my present or future. In Jesus name, I free myself from being enslaved and tormented by ____. I forgive them for their sins. Please bless them in Jesus name, Amen". Then burn, bury or throw out  the papers as a way of letting go. 
16. Talk to friends, family and a counsellor if need be. 
17. Last but definitely not least, DON'T GIVE UP! 

All of life's struggles are temporary. They may seem long and drawn out but one day we will be able to look back and be amazed that it's all over. 

My healing journey is not over yet friends and most days are a struggle just to function like a normal person but I do have good days way more than I did before. My mind is quite often foggy or being tormented. I truly look forward to the day that I'm able to "let go". It's a lot of work and effort and without my Heavenly Father's guidance and reassurance I am sure I wouldn't of made it this far. We need to be soldiers of Christ, willing to go into battle through anything for the sake of our Saviour. Remember what he went through for us. As I ponder ways of letting go, please pray for me. I'm just a regular person like yourself trying to be the best Christian I can be. 

God Bless you all.

A Survivor in the making!

The Armour Of God

Today's discussion is about the armour of God. As Christians we all start to realise at some point in our lives that we are in the spiritual warfare, a battle that we don't always see but a lot of the times we feel. I personally am going through this battle myself and I believe it's different for everyone depending on what season they're currently in. Well, I'm currently in the season of breaking down to be built back up. Beauty from Ashes. My mind is a constant battlefield where my daily prayers are for God's provision and protection whilst trying to renew my mind. As time has gone by, I've come across a few times in passing conversations or through sermons and amazing friends; the importance of putting on the armour of God! It's amazing when God wants you to get a message he will make sure he is heard. I had one beautiful friend tell me that God showed her that I needed to act out putting on the armour daily which was just amazing and for a few days I did it but then I became lazy and content with it. Then my mind was being attacked again. A couple months later, God provides a clear message to another friend of mine who then provides me with a daily prayer that both my husband and I should say daily and guess what..... Yep, you guessed it, it's truly about putting on each piece of the armour. So now there's a pattern I'm seeing here and I realise I need to listen. I've provided the amazing prayer below that was passed onto me:

Armour of God Prayer

"Dear Heavenly Father,

In the name of Jesus Christ Your Son, our Saviour, I ask You to protect my body, soul and spirit. Thank you for the armour that You have given me. I am saved from the wrath of God by the blood of Jesus, and I now put on the helmet of salvation to protect my mind.

Jesus became sin so that I might have the righteousness of God. I take, and put on, the breastplate of righteousness.

My faith is in Jesus Christ and I place Him before me as that mighty shield of faith, and I put my trust in Him to protect me from all of Satan's fiery darts.

I take hold of the belt of truth. Lord, Your word is truth and Jesus himself is "the way, the truth and the life".

Jesus, You are the Prince of Peace, and the gospel is the good news of peace. I place on my feet the shoes of the readiness of the gospel of peace.

Also, I take hold of the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. Let it be in my mouth as a double edged sword.

Thank You Father. You are my refuge and fortress, my rock and my shield, in God whom I trust.

Revelations 12:10-11: We overcome Satan when we declare what the blood of Jesus does for us.

Romans 3:23-25; Romans 8:33-34: The devil has no place in me, no power over me, and no unsettled claims against me. All has been settled at the cross by the blood of Jesus."

For good measure I add, in Jesus name we pray, Amen! It's such a powerful prayer to share with your spouse daily. Putting in place the protection over your marriage. At times I struggle to not live in the "if only we knew about this beforehand" scenario but if I can give you any sound advice like many others will at some stage, DO NOT LIVE IN THE IF ONLYS! It's a very difficult place to come back from. I'm telling you from experience. Everyday I'm having to catch those disturbing thoughts captive, rebuke them and remind myself to live in the now whilst focusing on God. I have to remind myself of his promises for my life. Remind myself that my identity is in Christ and truly it is exhausting having this continuous "silent" battle going on inside my head. To those around me I seem composed but the battle in my head is extremely loud and deafening. Satan wants to kill, steal and destroy but through the strength of Jesus Christ he cannot take what is rightfully God's and that is me! I'm not for sale. I cannot be bought but that doesn't mean satans going to give up without a fight. It's important to remember that the majority of the battle is between our Heavenly Father and satan. Jesus will and does go into battle for us and at times we just need to be still. At other times, we need to put our best foot forward and step out in faith. Putting on the armour, reciting a prayer, reading the bible, listening to sermons and sharing our testimony are all things that we can do to show God that we trust him.

Remember to rely on the Holy Spirit as he dwells inside of us. He is there to be a friend, to interpret our needs to God and also to provide us wise counsel. You just have to listen for his soft, pure voice. The Holy Spirit can help you through your spiritual battles but also remember the importance of testing the spirits. (I will go into this further in my next blog). For now, let's focus on the armour of God. 

Ephesians 6:13-18: 13 Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. 14 Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, 15 and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. 16 In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith,with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. 17 Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.

18 And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the Lord’s people.

Stand firm against Satan's attacks. "God is for us so who can be against us - Romans 8:31".


God Bless You!



Armed and Ready.