WRAP Week

White Ribbon Against Porn Week

October 25th - 31st 

"WHAT IS W.R.A.P. WEEK?

The National White Ribbon Against Pornography (WRAP) Week brings together hundreds of national, state and local groups, along with driven concerned citizens in a massive effort to educate the public on the harms from pornography and the many resources available to aid those affected. National WRAP Week always starts the last Sunday of October.

We are excited to take part in our 1st annual W.R.A.P. Week and even more excited to have you join us!

During WRAP Week we will choose a campaign to launch. An online initiative, if you will. This year we have decided to initiate the#IHATEPORN campaign. Will you join us?

Why this campaign? Well, we HATE porn! Romans 12:9 tells us to, hate what is evil and cling to what is good.

WE HATE WHAT PORN DOES TO THE USER

You become addicted to having a variety of sexual “partners.” This is not an addiction that works out very well in marriage—if you ever even get to that point. The sad fact is, some single people reading this would not still be single if not for porn. And most divorces (56%) involve one spouse having “excessive” porn use. Porn is killing your marriage before you even have a spouse.

You lose confidence. Pornography use is a coping mechanism for some underlying pain or insecurity. Besides not dealing with those issues, pornography gives you more things to be insecure about, and can often evolve into self-loathing and depression.

You become desensitized. To everything: good things do not bring you as much joy; terrible things do not seem as bad. Beautiful people around you cease to be beautiful, because you are used to unnatural bodies on a screen.

You become a monster. Eventually. As you become desensitized to porn itself, you need more extreme examples of it to get the same “fix.” So what’s more extreme? Incest. Bestiality. Rape. 90% of all porn scenes contain acts of physical or verbal aggression, and experiments have shown that porn use leads to a less positive view of women and a less negative view of rape.

WE HATE THE WAY PORN HURTS OTHERS

Pornography use hurts those you care about most, including yourself and your future or current spouse. But it hurts those in the industry even worse.

The great lie of pornographic movies is that the actors involved are really enjoying it. They are actors, acting out scenes in a fictional movie. But this type of movie has no stunt doubles, and the script includes humiliating, painful, and even abusive acts done in front of a film crew and replayed to a mass audience.

Here’s what is real:

Pornographic film actors/actresses are 10 times more likely to contract STDs.

Thanks to disease, drug use, suicide, and murder, it is reported that the average life expectancy of a pornographic performer is only 37.4 years.

Pornography contributes to sex trafficking. Fact.

By watching it, you help create the demand that keeps the industry going.

WE HATE WHAT PORN DOES TO OUR RELATIONSHIP WITH JESUS

You cannot be intimate with Jesus at the same time you are doing something that caused Him to suffer and die. Your own mind won’t allow it.

Even Jesus felt separated from God when He took on our sins on the cross.

If you can look at pornography and find that because of it your relationship with God is improved—that you feel closer to God, and everything is right between you and the Creator of all good things—then go ahead and do it. But if you can’t, don’t.

I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do…What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body that is subject to death? Thanks be to God, who delivers me through Jesus Christ our Lord! – Romans 7:15 & 24-25

HOW CAN YOU PARTICIPATE IN OUR WRAP WEEK'S #IHATEPORN CAMPAIGN?

You can participate by:

Posting one of our #IHATEPORN graphics as your Facebook, Twitter banner and/or profile pic during WRAP Week.

Share your photos and videos using the hashtag #IHATEPORN and #GOPWRAPWEEK on Twitter, Facebook and Instagram.

Purchasing a God Over Porn or #IHATEPORN merch, or you can donate $5 towards our ministry to help us continue in our efforts to spread the dangers of pornography.

BE SURE NOT TO MISS SOME GIVE-AWAYS THROUGHOUT THE WEEK AND OUR LIVE PERISCOPE BROADCAST WITH OUR FOUNDER JARRAD MILLER ON SATURDAY, OCTOBER 31ST AT 6:00 P.M. (CST) [PERISCOPE: @GODOVERPORN]

- See more at: http://www.godoverporn.org/upcoming-events"

This is my husband's hashtag for WRAP week. 

Get yourselves informed about the dangers of messing with pornography and the harm it has not only on the user, their families, their relationship with God and also the "pornstars". 

Signing Off,

Wife of an ex porn user!

#SavedByAmazingGrace

Surviving Adultery/Infidelity

Hi bloggers, 

Recently you may have noticed that I've been sharing a bit about the adultery that took place in my marriage and the healing my husband and I have had to endure. I wanted to share a link to a very special friend of mine who is another survivor of the devastation of infidelity that hit her marriage. You see, during the time my husband confessed I came across Tonya's blog about the infidelity that attacked her marriage and as broken as I was, it was so helpful to know that I wasn't alone. I felt it was a good time to post a link to her page in case your life has been hit with this tsunami and you don't know where to turn. I want to give you hope that you are not alone and that others have endured this before you including myself.  I personally didn't document like Tonya did but I did blog throughout the process as you will see if you go back to my very first blog in 2013. God wasn't telling me to outwardly share my testimony in a blog like he was with Tonya. The blog was more of a diary for me personally but as of more recent times God has shown me to be more direct with my blogs as I wasn't ready previously to come out and name the sin that had hit my marriage. If you go back over my blogs with knowing the adultery existed you will see my journey play out.

Throughout the bible you will see references to others who have committed adultery and Jesus has freed them and forgiven them from their sins. The other thing I really appreciate about Tonya's blog is that her husband (the one caught up in infidelity) shares a bit from his point of view and overcoming sexual sin through Christ Jesus. 

So, if you are the faithful spouse or the unfaithful spouse it is definitely worth reading through Tonya's blog series on Surviving Infidelity. I believe it will open the eyes of the unfaithful to the pain you have caused and truly show you the depth of hurt that your spouse maybe enduring but also the freedom in Jesus. For the faithful spouse you will spend hours sifting through Tonya's testimony and relating to almost every word. You will find comfort in knowing that you are not alone and you will find healing through Jesus through the many scriptures she provides. 

Follow the series closely and I believe God will bring restoration if it's meant to be, just like he did for my husband and I. 

Know that you are loved whether faithful or unfaithful and that what Jesus endured on the cross was for both of you so that you can live free from this devastation and find true healing.

We have all been unfaithful to God and we all have made mistakes. Jesus went to the cross because none of us are sinless but we can be redeemed and made new if we accept Jesus into our hearts. 

God bless you brothers and sisters, freedom is ahead!

Tonya's blog series: Surviving Infidelity

(Please click on the words "Surviving Infidelity" to go to her site.)

To The Other Women

To the women who played their role in committing adultery with my husband...........

I FORGIVE YOU! I have already forgiven my husband but now it's your turn. I also accept your apologies whether you are sorry or not because Jesus' blood covers ALL sins, yours included. You see the reason I can forgive you all is because Jesus first forgave me for my sins and took them on the cross. Forgiveness freed me from being tide down to you spiritually and emotionally. I will no longer allow you to have power over my life. You have no right to live rent free in my mind, emotionally abusing me with the visions of you with my dearly beloved husband. No longer will I allow the devil to use your sins to harm me and keep me trapped in bondages of insecurities and depression. You may have had a glimpse of my life by trying to make it your own but I now know you never took anything from me because all you got was the superficial front which had no depth to it and with every embrace with my husband you were hurting yourself, your family and your walk with Jesus. I at least know from my husbands point of view there was no depth to the time he spent with you. It was superficial and sin lead. I truly feel sorry for you that you felt that getting involved with a married man was the only way for you to feel a sense of love and wholeness that you weren't getting elsewhere, only to find out that it made you even more empty inside riddled with guilt and shame. 

I want to let you know that you are worth so much more than that. You are NOT a bottom feeder trying to eat up the crumbs of my marriage even though your actions said otherwise. You are a beautiful woman of God. You are created in his very image. God knows how many hairs are on your head and how many tears you have cried. He knows the desires of your heart and the hurts you have had to endure. JESUS LOVES YOU and I LOVE YOU TOO!! You are my sister in Christ who was lost, broken and being used by the devil himself. I pray for you ladies regularly for your salvation and that God heals your broken hearts and the damage done in your own relationships because deep down I know that this is not what you wanted for your life. I know that you didn't just wake up one day and say "I'm going to have an affair or commit adultery with a married man". I truly believe you are a kind hearted person who was hurting and looking for comfort and affection in all the wrong places only to have wound up in the arms of my beloved husband who was also broken. I realise what you were searching out in my husband and him in you couldn't fulfil either of you because only Jesus can fulfil those areas of your heart and God only blesses the marriage covenant not relationships outside of his perfect will. Your time with my husband was setup and arranged by the devil himself. As the bible says;

Ephesians 6:12 - "For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places."

This very verse tells me that you aren't the issue for you were lost in sin with scales over your eyes put their by the enemy which you fell for his deceit. My fight is with the devil himself and honestly, I just need to stand firm and claim Jesus finished work on the cross because the devil himself has already been beaten.

I pray that through this turmoil you have learnt more about yourself and who you are to Jesus. You are worth so much more than you give yourself credit for. I know that you may go through life with a painted smile on your face and to those on the outside you seem to have it all together but on the inside you are dying little bit by little bit and drowning in your own tears. I'm so sorry if this is where you are at or if you have experienced this in the past but know that through the adulterous acts you brought that very feeling into my life also. 

GOD RESTORED WHAT THE LOCUST HAD EATEN!

I can tell you now though that Jesus healed me completely and walked with me side by side through this healing journey. I'M HEALED!! Praise God. I wouldn't trade the closeness with my Heavenly Daddy I've experienced through this whole ordeal so thank you. It only drove me closer to Jesus, not further away. I can hold my head high knowing that I wasn't the unfaithful one in this marriage but we all have been unfaithful to Jesus and I've had to repent in this area also. I have found my true identity through this devastation and found my worth in Jesus. No longer do I feel less prettier than you because of yours and my husbands actions. You see for a while there what you and my husband did, it broke me and the enemy spoke ugly words in my head day in, day out telling me I wasn't pretty enough or worth being faithful too. These were LIES!! I must admit for a while I started to believe it but NOT ANYMORE! I'm free!! I pray you are never on the receiving end of a spouse cheating on you because once it happens only Jesus can breathe life back into a marriage torn apart by the devastations that come with sexual sin but know that it is possible not only to be alive but to thrive as well. I sure am! 

My heart is whole, I'm full of joy that cannot be taken away by life's ups and downs or the actions of others. I'M FREE and I pray you are too. 

Jesus died for you too. Not just the faithful spouse but for the adulterous one also. Jesus died for all sins so that we can be made right with our Heavenly Father so that we have everlasting life in Heaven. 

Have you accepted Jesus into your heart? Do you know what Jesus did for you on the cross? 

I no longer fear you and honestly, I just feel empathy for you now. When I think of you, I wonder whether you have accepted Jesus into your life and if you are walking out that faith in your life to the point where the sins of the past are no longer reoccurring in your life. I hope that the pain I had to endure from yours and my husbands sinful ways at least led you to search out God in your brokenness as it did for us. Know that you are precious to God.

THANK YOU that through this whole experience it has only driven my husband and I closer to one another and we no longer take our marriage covenant for granted. God used this experience to free my husband from sinful bondages that had him tied down to the pit of hell. He is free and is a faithful man to Jesus and to me now. I wouldn't trade that for anything. The old marriage is dead and buried but the new marriage covenant is spotless and beautiful in Jesus. I pray you have this now too.

I'm looking forward to our visit down South soon because I'm free and can face where it all took place. It's time for us to close the book of the past and start a fresh, I hope you have successfully done the same. It's amazing!!! Life is beautiful and so are we. 

Healed, Whole and Loved for eternity!!

Signing Off,

Faithful Servant of God!

Healing Testimony

Hi guys/gals, I know it's been a LONG time since I've written anything. Please forgive me, life got the better of me by keeping me busy busy busy. You know that's the devils tactics right? Keep you busy and keep you off track. LOL Anyway,

6th/7th/8th Of December 2014

My husband and I were walking through the mall doing the never ending Christmas shopping as we all seem to do around this crazy time of year and all of a sudden my sciatic nerve decided to act up which runs from my left hip, down my buttocks and to my thigh with a sharp excruciating pain that ran down to my foot making it almost impossible to step without feeling like I was going to fall to the floor. Well, this has been happening for the last 2.5 years on and off. I waited a few minutes and then it went away and I was thankful to Jesus that it was a short visit. I went back to walking and shopping and about 5 minutes later it returned which had never happened before in such a short amount of time. Only this time it didn't go away. I was hopping along in the store in agony and trying to push through it just to get out the door and get to the car. Well, we got back to the hotel room and I tell you what it was the worst nights sleep I've had in a while. I asked my husband to pray over me and he did and I woke up the next morning still in pain. It was a little less than the night before but only a slight difference. Back in the car in agony for the long 2.5 hour drive home and I couldn't sleep or get comfortable so as soon as I got home it was straight to bed with painkillers to numb the pain. We were meant to go to a Christmas carols gathering just down the road and I just couldn't make it but my husband went. Anyway, a couple hours later my husband returns and tells me that a brother in Christ wants to pray for me and so my husband wanted to make sure I was decent. I felt that inner voice of the Holy Spirit tell me to get up and go to him. I listened to him and followed his instruction and lent on my husband and hopped the whole way there. Once there my amazing brother in Christ, his wife and children laid hands on me and prayed and before long I felt a warmth over my head where he had his hand and eventually I felt the Holy Spirit go through my body! WOW!!! For those of you who haven't experienced this it is kind of like when you get goose bumps from the cold only 100% more stronger and warmer and if you've heard of people that say things like someone stepped on your grave (so wrong biblically) but you know what I mean, well it's like that but it's pleasing, amazing and feels like an instant ooze of love going through you. Well, that happened and then my brother in Christ's wife who we will call "Cee" laid her hands on my right leg and prayed that God would fix my hips because of the tightness one of my legs was longer than the other. I kid you not as she was doing this I opened my eye and I saw my right leg GROW!! It grew from the calf area not from the knee. I know this because I had my legs propped up on a box and before my very eyes it grew!!!! I was even in SHOCK! Within a short time my brother in Christ who I will call "Tee" asked me to stand up and see if it's better. I got up gently and stepped on the left sore leg and then began to bend my leg, move my hip from side to side and BAM I WAS FREE AND HEALED. PRAISE THE LORD! You know what I did next right? Well, I decided to walk up the path and then I ran on it to just make sure I wasn't going crazy and seeing things. HALELLUJAH! I WAS AND AM HEALED! It's soooooooo amazing experiencing something so out of this world it's amazing. Well, I went home late that night powered up for Jesus by the Holy Spirit and I couldn't sleep. I ended up praising and worshipping Jesus and dancing for Jesus for AGES and then I crashed out and went to sleep. AMAZING!

The next day I woke up with a sore right knee.... Ooooh that sneaky wretched devil!! He was trying to discredit Jesus and his healing. I decided I would do my best to praise Jesus through it and declare that I am healed. I ignored the pain for hours and hours. In fact I went out for lunch with a friend and we walked around and came home and by the time I came home the pain was throbbing in my knee... Remember, the original pain was in my left hip and now the pain is in my right knee!?! Crazy. So, I got home and kept praising Jesus through it and after resting it and raising my leg it just wasn't going away. I couldn't cope anymore and so I went and got an ice pack, put it on my knee and took a painkiller and went to bed. Whilst in bed I was listening to healing sermons and declaring that I was healed through the blood of Jesus. Next day the pain was GONE! Once and for all! Wooohooooo!!!!! Jesus showed up and showed that devil he had no place here and freed me from those pains once and for all. Today it's the 14th of December and guess what....?? NO PAIN! Thank you Jesus! You are a mighty and loving God. My healer and provider. Thank you thank you thank you! Please never doubt the power of Jesus finished work on the cross and the Holy Spirit he left us when he went to heaven.

Praise The Lord!!

Signing Off,

Thankful Servent

Healed, At least I thought I was....

November 2014 

My husband and I have been up and down emotionally like a Yo-Yo these past couple of years due to the adultery and infertility devastations. We have days and weeks where things are great and then an image, nightmare or reminder would come into my head like it flew in there and I'd rebuke the devil and claim the victory of healing but the image would manifest into something uglier and I'd fall for the devils nasty tricks over and over. I could see it so clearly when my mind was right but then in the midst of it, it was like I didn't know which way was up or down. Not only were we struggling with the past and my husband struggling with the guilt and shame but we are also missionaries too remember!?! Living to serve God's children... We are houseparents to between 9-12 teenage girls that were going through their very own spiritual battles so we had a lot on our shoulders to say the least.

My husband and I were struggling to keep our heads above water. There was a further break down in communication which we now realise is the devils ultimate plan. Ultimately he is just trying to kill, steal and destroy. Breaking down relationships is his fortay and he has been doing it for a mighty long time. As soon as someone pointed this out to us we were more equipped to realise it and repent, forgive and give glory to God which would make the devil flee. 

Anyway, things got so bad we just couldn't take it anymore and decided that we are surrounded by Christians and it was time to lean not only on Christ and each other but our brothers and sisters in Christ as well. So, we went to a friend of ours house and they prayed for us. These guys are so revved up for Jesus, have the gift of healing and the Holy Spirit gives them images and words to speak into peoples lives. These guys are such a blessing to us. Anyway, we went to their house and our brother in Christ reminded my husband that he is spotless now through the finished work on the cross. He is and we are children of God. Sons and daughters of the most high. My husband had been beaten over the head so much by the devil, by seeing me in pain that he dropped his identity and accepted the devils thoughts as his own and so had I. It was this reminder that put him back into perspective and set him free from that bondage again. AMEN! Our brother "Tee" said to my husband "M" that sin is like a bucket of paint, sometimes it get's spilt or we spill it all over the white walls (life) and through Christ overcoming death and sin on the cross he has cleaned it all up. That really hit home for me. Then as I was praying I got an image of white walls and me kicking the bucket over to make it spill on the walls. As if I was searching hard to see whether there was anymore sin left in my husbands life. Then "Cee" our brother's wife said to me that she had this image of me searching frantically in the corners of this white walled room high and low for the stains and on the walls but there were no stains on my husband because it's been dealt with but the paint was on my clothes,  I was wearing his sins but it wasn't touching my skin because I'm also free from sin through Christ. "Cee's" interpretation was that I'm looking every where in my husbands life to see if theirs still areas of sin that he's carrying around of hiding from me because I don't trust him but that he is free and is no longer that man that once hurt me deeply. He has been made new and righteous and he is a faithful, honourable man of God and that I don't need to look or search anymore but that I have to take off those old clothes, meaning I had to take off that old condemnation, sin nature, burden, hurt and put on my white clean robe that Jesus gave to me freely on the cross. When she told me this I knew this was right and I started bawling like a baby. It hit home because I had been so sin conscious that I would search high and low to see if my husband was just "pretending" to be healed but I never found anything. In the past 2.5 years I have not been able to find a single thing out of place in my husbands life. Not one thing. Whereas before, I didn't need to search very far to find the ugliness. It's amazing and yet scary all at once. I told "Cee" the vision I had and I was so amazed and what God had just showed us. From that point on for about 3 or 4 weeks I was completely and utterly free from the devils sneaky ways and I felt 100% healed once and for all. 

It was the most amazing experience. I went home and repented for the hatred that was festering inside of me towards the other women, I made a visual declaration to Jesus and took off the spotted clothes and through them in a visual fire and accepted my white robe from Jesus. I basked in the beauty of freedom. I praised and worshipped Jesus in the morning when I woke up I'd praise him, thank him and declare that I was healed and free and spotless at night I'd do the same. It was soooo beautiful. 

3 or 4 weeks later..... 

There were random thoughts going through my head which at first I knew weren't mine so it was quite easy to recognise it was the enemy and I just declared I was healed and praised Jesus but then there were some other thoughts of us running into the other women at a shopping centre and I first thought hey, that would be a good opportunity to show forgiveness and grace but then it morphed into myself being full of anxiety and fear... There it was!! The devil had me again... I was truly a mess, deep in the pain and destruction of it all, all over again. It was a very wrestles night and I woke up the next day drained, tired and a sense of hopelessness fell upon me. You see after this much time you start to question whether you will ever be free. It truly brings you down but I'm aware that it's the enemies schemes to try to keep me away from my breakthrough.

 A few days later.......

I woke up and Jesus freed me from the devil and he fleed. Jesus restored my hope and my fight to continue. AMEN!

When God Comes Through

Hi Fam! Sorry it's been a few days since I've written a blog but I must tell you, I truly wait for God to implant something on my heart before I just start typing away. I allow the Holy Spirit to direct my blogs so when I'm a little on the quiet side, this is why. 

"After a storm comes a rainbow"

Going back almost 8 months ago I was given a few visions that were just amazing, especially considering the timing. If you go back and read "Double the Trouble and Double the Fun" you will see that I talked on visions that were provided to me during a very rough time in my marriage and one of those was the conception of our twin baby boys. The other which I'm going to spend a little bit of time talking about today is the vision of my husband and I providing "Christian marriage counselling" for those whom God sends our way. In regards to the "twin babies" vision, this one we are still waiting on patiently and staying faithful for. 

Anyway, I truly need to explain the depth of this Christian marriage counselling vision for you to grasp just how amazing our God is. So, 8 months ago my marriage was hit with one of the biggest storms I've ever been through to the point where I thought my marriage was going to end. I couldn't see a way that all things were going to workout for the greater good. One lonely night after the storm had hit, I couldn't sleep, my head was flooded with pesky images, thoughts and emotions. I was exhausted. I was broken and my world had been torn apart but in the midst of this emotional crisis, I began to see the first image as if I was watching a movie and it was the vision of our twin boys at the park with my husband. The next vision was of my husband and I providing Christian marriage counselling to other couples. The vision showed my husband and I sitting in our lounge room and across from us was another husband and wife scenario with the woman crying and the man trying to comfort her. All I could think was, "why am I seeing this?" "What is the purpose of this?" "This marriage is doomed, so why now God?" "Why are you showing me the children I will never have?" "Why am I seeing a vision of my husband and I counselling others?" These visions rushed through my head over and over again. Needless to say, I didn't get much sleep that night, nor the following weeks to come. 

As time went by I wrestled with God, trying to understand why he would allow the devastations that happened to hit our marriage. I continuously spoke out to him saying things like "God, if you loved me then why would you allow this to happen?" "God, I don't want to be a marriage counsellor because that means I'm going to be reminded ALL the time of the past failures in my marriage." "Why do I have to do this?" The "why" questions flooded my mind for months and months on end. A part of me felt as if God had failed me as my father. It was truly a painful and ugly place to be in. Anyway, what I can tell you now, 8 months later is that God is sooo AMAZING! Not only is he healing my marriage and he's restored my husband and I back to our original image and value through the cross and the sacrifice of Jesus Christ but he's showing me, guiding me and teaching me how to accept my new found destiny. 

Over the last month, my husband and I have had a few couples reaching out to us, asking for Godly advice. Do you see the vision God planted on my heart 8 whole months ago is coming to life!! I'm not saying that we are qualified in an educated sense in this area however, we have walked through the valley of the shadow of death and we are out the other side but only through Christ who has given us strength. It's absolutely amazing. It's truly mind blowing. God truly sticks to his word. He is so faithful. 

I spoke on asking the Holy Spirit into your life during my "Tormented by the Past: 3rd and Final" blog and how I had the most beautiful and amazing revelation of God through the Holy Spirit. During my conversations with the Holy Spirit I asked him whether my husband and I should start studying "Christian Counselling" since this is the direction God wants us in. I explained my hesitation and that I don't get the sense that God wants me to because I have been wrestling with the idea of studying for sometime now. The Holy Spirit, giggled and said: "Renee, haven't you already been counselling others? If God wanted you to study you would have already been there. God can make ALL things come together for his eternal plan. Rely on him. Trust him and he will see to it that this all comes to light." Amazing right!?! Well, what can I say, it's begun! 

I can tell you, it hasn't been smooth sailing in the sense that there is still a part of me that "wishes" that this wasn't a part of my life because reliving past hurts can be so painful and frustrating. I know that one day I'm going to wake up and the past hurts are no longer going to have that nasty sting attached to them and that is the day I'm truly looking forward to. However, I also feel so privileged that God believes in my husband and I with these amazing peoples lives and helping them through their struggles. I find myself thinking, if only there were more people on the positive side of the spectrum coming to us so that we could do more on the preventative measure than the crisis mode stuff but I guess we all have a season or two of crisis mode. 

My point is that as long as we are truly relying on God he will come through for us. It may not look like how we want it to, it may not be in the time frame we desire but it will happen. If God has given you a word or a vision hold on tight to those things and NEVER let them go because God will provide for you as he is for me. Just keep your eyes set on God. Show him your dedication and do the things you can whilst waiting for him to come through with his promises. NEVER GIVE UP!

God Bless,

Storm Fighter!

Tormented By The Past - 3rd and Final

Hi brothers and sisters, if you haven't read "Part 1" and "Part 2" please do so, so that you can keep up to date with God's amazing healing abilities. May God bless you all!

As you may have noticed I've written that this blog on the series "Tormented By the Past" is going to be my last on this topic. There has been a huge transition from where I was to where I am now. As I'm writing you, I'm trying to think what things truly helped with my letting go of past hurts and disappointments and I know this is going to sound a bit cliche but truly it was God's amazing blessings partnered with determination. 

Honestly, when you are so broken that the only thing that is going to get you out of a really bad situation is relying on our Heavenly Father, he truly steps in and does the rest for you. When I truly opened my heart and gave him the key, he was able to step in and work his miracles. There has been a complete shift in my way of thinking from feeling like a victim to knowing that I'm a survivor. One of the biggest pieces of advice I could give you is to focus less on your problems at hand and seek out God in everything you do. What I mean by that is, when we spend so much time focusing on our problems we allow them to become a much bigger problem. You are breathing life into the ugly and that is exactly what satan wants us to do. When you redirect your focus on God you are strengthening that relationship which decreases the strength of your current situation. 

Philippians 4:8:"Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things."

This was not an easy journey for my husband and I but I have learnt so much from our season of suffering in the valley. I'm not saying that bad days won't come from now on because that would be a lie but I know with all of my heart and soul we are on the other side of this thing. I know who I am and that my identity is in Christ and never again will anyone steal that from me. 

What I can say is that through our trials, especially the extremely severe broken foundational trials is that unless you go through it, you will never understand just how painful it truly is. Also, when you've been through such devastation you will be amazed at the true connection you have with your Heavenly Father, Jesus and the Holy Spirit. Before this season of suffering, I had never really experienced Gods "REAL" love. I was working to please him which is truly a waste of time because we cannot make him love us anymore or any less than he already does. I had never really experienced that deep connection with the Holy Spirit until now. I can honestly hear his pure and soft voice that dwells within me. He's such an amazing counsellor and I expect that over time that voice will be heard more frequent and a lot more clearer. 

As I was spending time in prayer a few days ago I invited the Holy Spirit into my conversation and I couldn't believe what I was hearing!! At first I was sceptical but he truly expressed things that no one else knew, he quoted biblical verses that not even I had read before and he even explained the importance of testing the spirits. It was so fascinating. He explained things in our healing journey, he gave clear instructions and told me when this season was going to come to an end. The fact is that, the Holy Spirit who dwells in you is real. He wants a relationship with you. He wants to speak to you on behalf of God. He is so loving and so trustworthy. For some people, experiencing the true depth of the Holy Spirit seems so distant and impossible but I'm here to tell you that he is real and he is just waiting for you to seek him out. It may not happen straight away but stay persistent. Faith will always be the driving force. When you have an abundance of faith in Christ, Jesus you will be amazed at the miracles you start to see big and small. 

All though I have been through many trials in my life already, I realise that God has had a plan and purpose for all of our shortcomings all along. He truly is turning it all around for our good. I still have some smaller hurdles to overcome but all things through Christ are possible. The fear that was driving me beforehand is no longer a strong presence in my life. I no longer feel like the woman trapped in a bubble or in fear of running into people to the same degree I was before. I have a sense of purpose and direction and I've become a woman after God's own heart. May God bless you all and do the same for you. Life is one big journey that God takes us on, removing the fruitless things in our lives and replacing them with blessings. Sometimes, in fact most of the time that isn't a painless process but stay focused because there is a purpose for your suffering.

God loves you!

Tormented No Longer!