Happy Easter

Just a quick message to say Happy Easter and acknowledge Jesus on this special day. Based on evidence provided, Jesus died on the cross on the Friday and rose again Sunday. It's because of Jesus that I am free from my sins and free from a tainted life that would have lead to my death and an eternal life in hell. It is such an overwhelming feeling to know that God loves me that much that he would send his very own son to take my sin on himself to the cross and to experience the hell that was meant for me but God would never give up on his own son in the long term. God raised Jesus from the dead through the Holy Spirit. How amazing is that!?!

I hope you all have a fabulous long weekend celebrating the freedom we were given without even earning it.

God bless you all


Signing off,




Thankful Christian

Work and Life balance

Hi everyone, firstly I need to apologise for not posting any blogs since January of this year. *shakes head at self. I have seriously let this thing slide and I do regret it but with life being as busy as it is and my poor prioritising skills this is what happens so please for give me.

On the topic of work, late last year my husband and I moved to a remote community within Australia to help others and also re find ourselves after such a horrific year previously. We have had many highs and lows a long the way but ultimately we love living remote. The one thing we are struggling with most is not having a church home to go to as the only church here is a Catholic Church and most of you are aware we are more Pentecostal. Anyway, not having that family to lean on has been a challenge especially during the growing pains period in our marriage with the season of healing and God restoring what the locusts had eaten. Beyond that I'm struggling within my position due to my boss who I won't blast on the internet but ultimately we are not here for the same reasons and our personalities truly clash beyond words. Me personally my main reasons for being here is; healing, following the direction god had given me and to truly help the less fortunate and through Christ prayerfully help others in the process. For her however, I believe her reasoning is something a long the lines of walking up the corporate ladder and making herself look and feel good in the process.... Ultimately I believe this is what causes a lot of our problems because I don't care about what others higher than me think as a whole, I mainly care about the families, children and community. My aim is to help them and to be like Christ to them because I maybe the only glimpse they see. Of course it's nice to get recognition for the effort you've put in but at the end of the day I work for God beyond all these smaller bosses. He is the one I aim to please in a sense. I can fall into the traps of trying to please management but that is not who I am and never have been that kind of person. Sadly, I believe that is the kind of company I work for as well. Too many chiefs and not enough Indians is a good saying that comes to mind.

I do have to recognise the areas within myself that I can work on because I cannot change how others act and feel so I truly do need Gods help with helping me to identify the areas I need change and grow in. I believe that some people are put in our lives to bend us, frustrate us, anger us, love us, agree with us and hurt us to test us and shape us into the people we are meant to be.

I'm sadly at the point though with this position that I'm almost ready to walk away. I have realised also that child care is not for me no matter in what context. I love the children and I love the families I just think that at this point in my life I would be better suited to making program's for others to implement. I truly feel that a community service provider position would be better suited whether it is helping young mums or helping create program's for underprivileged children to help them excel in life. Either way, child care is not the answer. I also want to find a job that I can openly talk about Jesus with the children and share the gospel with them in a kid friendly kind of way. The thing that gets me is that I'm currently living in a community that was built on an old catholic mission and Catholicism is still very evident today. A lot of the people are still very lost, don't know their identity is in Christ but are definitely holding on to the idea of a saviour and yet I'm not allowed to talk about Jesus to the children within the centre even though the local people here want it to be included, it baffles me.

I want to stay in this community as does my husband but I truly need God in this situation because this is not how I feel it is meant to be. I need his hand over this situation but more so I require his hand of healing and protection over this entire community. I have a deep passion to see these people freed from the torments of sin and walking in faith knowing that Jesus died on the cross so they can and will be free if they just surrender and follow Christ all the days of their life. I want the opportunity to share the good news with them. I have built some really close relationships with some local families and I just want to continue being the light for Jesus in their lives. I'd love for God to sweep in and remove me from this position but put me in one that I can truly be the hands that Jesus uses to heal and help these beautiful people.

Anyway, my issue here is that I obviously bring my work struggles home and unload on my husband who is also having issues of his own at work and because our housing is tied into my job and housing is hard to come by out here I feel quite pressured to stay in this job. We also have two dogs which adds to the struggles of getting other housing. At this point I don't see another job available that I truly desire so I'm just praying God steps in and does what is best for his plan which ultimately will be good for me too.

Please pray for us as we continue to fight the good fight on the front line against the enemy. We know that the closer we get to gods plan the harder and heavier the enemy will attack however, the fight has already been won on the cross by Jesus. Sometimes I can lose sight of that and need a friendly reminder.

For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places.

Signing off,


Freedom fighter!

Happy New Years

Hi blogger sphere, Happy delayed New Years! Where shall I start? Well, CHRISTmas was a fantastic time shared with friends and family eating and being Merry. Whilst we shared this special time of year with believers and non believers my husband and I spent the day being thankful for our Lord and Saviour. It was great! God is so good. 

Fast forward to New Years Eve and I have to say that it was a spiritual struggle during the day and the pain of past sins was ever so clear so I spent most of the morning praying, crying, sleeping and repeat. I then spoke to a beautiful Godly friend who prayed for me and talked me through my struggles and helped me to decide to go out to the parties I was invited too. I dragged myself off the couch and got ready to go out and I must say once I was out with my husband all the worries just seemed to wash away the more I focused on the cross and being around other people the freer I became. Thank you Jesus!!! My husband and I brought in the new year surrounded by wonderful people and there was even a God appointed moment where some other ladies shared the struggles of sin and the impact it has had on their relationships. I can say that God gave me an opening to discuss in great detail my testimony and the struggles but also share my Saviour who has walked along side me through it all.

I can say that through the many images or bible scriptures I've read that 2014 is our year of reaping from what we've sown through sweat, blood and tears. Let's just saying I'm excited and anticipating the many blessings coming our way. I will be honest though, there are times where I wonder when or if it will all come to pass but then I remind myself or the Holy Spirit does and I remember to just trust in The Lord because he will make all our paths straight and he is turning this all around for my good. 

There has been a lot going on these past couple months with being ridiculed for being an outspoken believer at work, to the point where I handed in my resignation because work is work but God is life or death to me and we stand firm in our faith. As you know this job is quite new as well so that would have been a bit sad but this is the world we live in now. Non believers talk about tolerance all day long but yet when a Christian is an outspoken believer they become intolerant. Interesting isn't it? Anyway, then the enemy was trying to cause more issues at work which he was successful at for a bit but God swooped through and saved me from all of that ridiculousness. All I can say that, we are coming up against a lot of adversities which tells us that we are in the right place because firstly God sent us to this remote location and secondly the enemy is pissed that God now has willing tools he can use to help save the masses through us. There has been laughter and tears at the enemies attacks but either way we are not leaving this place until God says so. As for the job, if this one isn't the one that is absolutely fine by us because there are many more jobs here. Since it's through Gods will we can continue to see many miracles happen here. 

Local ladies have been coming to me and opening up to me about the sins that are within their marriage and the devastating pains they are having to endure. It's amazing that God is sending these people my way so that I can direct them to Jesus! I love it! Also, we've been able to bless a family we met in Indonesia  through the financial blessings God has given us. We've also helped provide some of the local families here with food and necessities. God is wonderful and I'm so thankful that he's blessing us so we can bless others. 

I'm enjoying these 3 weeks holidays and in all honesty I'm not looking forward to going back. I love just hanging out with the locals, chatting and being a blessing to them. I don't feel like working in a child care centre is actually my calling so I'm waiting very impatiently.... Forgive me father, for his redirection. 

Anyway, I will do my best this year to keep this up to date as much as possible.

May God bless you throughout this coming year! 

Signing off, 

Hopeful Missionary!

Freedom to start over

The past few weeks had been quite a struggle for me up until about 4 days ago. I kept asking God "when will this suffering end? I cannot keep going on like this. It's too much. I poured out my heart and let God know that I know that he loves me and has a plan to prosper me however, I don't think I can hold on much longer. After many sleepless, teary eyed nights I woke up one morning and a weight had been lifted from my shoulders. Thank you Jesus!!! 

I've realised today that I have the freedom to start over in my marriage because Jesus paid the ultimate price for me and when he said "it is finished" he meant it is finished. I no longer need to feel the depths of pain caused by sin. I no longer have to see myself as a victim because I'm not a victim, I'm a survivor and I'm a child of God who has the exact same Holy Spirit dwelling in me as Jesus had within him many many years ago. I no longer want to or need to be tied down by past hurts because I can let go of them and let God so that is what I'm going to do. Today I take a stand and through the strength, guidance and wisdom of my Heavenly Father I will be free to love and trust my husband again because I can trust that God has healed him from the inside out. I choose to trust God with my life even when it seems hopeless. I can guarantee that I will not do it perfectly but I will do my best and I know that, that is enough for my Heavenly Father because he will do the rest. Life is a funny thing you know and until you go through something seriously life altering you do not realise how much you were taking for granted. It's as if through our trials we gain wisdom, freedom, identity when we choose to lean into The Lord and we gain a new perspective on the way we were once living. The storm my marriage endured was excruciating and I would never want to re live it or wish it upon anyone else but sadly we will all endure something in our lives that stretches us. It's just a matter of how we cope with those moments when they come. If I could give you any advice at all, do not run from your storm, lean into it, go through it. Experience every emotion that comes with it. Process it and lean in towards Jesus. When you are ready you can then let go but know that God is in control. Know that you will never be the same you as you left behind before the storm but you can be a better version of yourself if you put in the time, patience and endurance. 

May God watch over every single on of you and help you on this journey to be more like Christ. 

God Bless, 

Freedom comes with forgiveness

When God shows you favour...

Have you ever experienced extreme storms in your life and during that storm you've leant in closer to our amazing creator to then only be shown unmerited favour? Well, I can say that 6 months ago I would have never thought he would bother to bless me ever again since my marriage was in the biggest mess it could possibly be in. As I sit here and look back on the blessings in my life during this past year of trials I'm starting to clearly see where Gods hand has been. I can honestly say before today it has been quite difficult to see any such blessings because the pain and suffering was blocking my view however, today there is a little light shining through. 

Heavenly Father, I just want to thank you for always being in control of our lives and always having a plan beyond our own thought restrictions. I thank you for salvaging my marriage from the depths of hell and I thank you that in your word we will receive double for our trouble. I'm learning to trust you and to trust that this time of discipline is for my benefit. I want to thank you for blessing me with my husband and helping me to be more like you during our trials together. I thank you for the growth I'm seeing so clearly in him and I thank you for beginning to remove the "hurt scales" from my eyes so that I can see the man I love so clearly as well as myself being your beautiful blessed daughter. I also want to thank you for never leaving me, nor forsaking me and having a plan to see me prosper beyond my wildest dreams just as long as I keep relying on you. I'm sorry for the times I try to take control of the reins time and time again but I thank you that you do not get angry with me and stay by my side whilst walking me through it. I thank you for blessing us with this new and wonderful adventure we are currently on and that you answer even the smallest of requests. You continue to amaze me and you do it so quietly that I could easily miss your blessings if I don't keep my eyes and heart focused on you. Thank you for bringing this awareness to my heart. I love you daddy in Jesus name, Amen!

As you can see I've just had a significant revelation so I had to take the time to acknowledge that. Thank you Jesus!

May God Bless You All,

Growth beyond measure!